Psalm 119:10
With my whole heart I seek you; let me not wander from your commandments! Psalm 119:10
I love this idea of a “whole heart.” I love the image of an “undivided heart.” This speaks volumes about the state of my heart.
Sadly I confess to people that there are still remote places of my heart that have never heard the name of Jesus proclaimed. I have dark places in the recesses of my heart that have never seen the light of the gospel.
I long for the day where I honestly say as the psalmist does here, “With my whole heart I seek you!”
It is tragic that as an adult, I sensed this longing; this desire to seek God will all my heart. But ignorantly I did not know that my heart could find wholeness by following the truths found in Scripture. I was not smart enough to “not wander from your commandments” because I did not know His commandments.
I graduated high school in the mid 70’s. I finished college and was a young husband, father and professional throughout the 80’s. I was buying and reading every self-help book I could find. I read more pop psychology that I care to admit. It was not until the mid-90’s that I hit a crisis; a fork in the road where I had to decide how’s path I was going to follow; mine or God’s.
Fortunately, I found myself at a Bible teaching church, I heard the gospel for the first time and God revealed Himself to me through Scripture. I was blown away. God had revealed the path He had for me using His Word to communicate it to me. I had lived 35 years searching for my way and my path. But God is faithful…
He showed me His path and His way in Jesus Christ, my Lord and my Savior. Oh how I long to say that with a “whole heart.” That day is coming. I still struggle to day to not have a divided heart. Come Lord Jesus, give me a whole heart in which to worship You and let me know wander from commandments.
