Psalm 119:4-5

You have laid down precepts that are to be fully obeyed. Oh, that my ways were steadfast in obeying your decrees! — Psalm 119:4-5

I can hear my voice crack as these words leave my lips. I want badly for them to be true but I know my heart and I know the rebellion that still resided in those dark, remote places of my heart.

How I so want steadfastness to be found in me. I desire to be obedient. But God is faithful. My testimony is one of God’s faithfulness, not my own faithfulness. All that I possess that is considered good is a gift from God.

All the LORD’s precepts are good. They are for God’s ultimate Glory and my good. My circumstances do not dictate my response (as they once did). I desire to respond in faithfulness and obedience. And over time, the spiritual disciple of steadfastness will be added to me. As I ponder the fruit of the Spirit found in Galatians 5, I long to be found steadfast in each of these.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law
— Galatians 5:22-23 ESV